I have a problem with being vain. Not towards other people…only to regarding myself. I constantly think about the things I would change and how I would change them. I’m never satisfied with myself. I get jealous of pretty girls with thick hair and thin waists. I cry in bed sometimes when I think about my hair thinning.
I find myself skimming through old pictures on Facebook and thinking to myself, “I was prettier then. I had thicker hair and better skin.” I always compare myself to others and scoff at compliments. Even losing 20 pounds didn’t change things.
But why? I found a wonderful man who loves me for who I am and what I look like. He loves my American thighs and big butt. Hair loss doesn’t concern him and when I cry he tells me I’m beautiful. I don’t understand why I feel this way, it just happens. I wish I knew how to get past those trivial things that don’t affect who I am as a person.